the turbulence

The world seems a bigger and better place when you are happy, when everything is under control, when what you plan is going on the way you want. But when the future is somehow blurry to you, you start to feel scared, the world changed to the darkest night, the most limited and crowded place you cannot breath. Your heartbeat just cannot stop beating any slower even when you are sleeping. Your mind is not at ease. Your heart is worried. Your soul is unpeaceful. Your limbs tremble at times. 

And then you really don't know what to do, worried if your solution is not going to work, worried if you are going to repeat the mistakes you made and lose the person you have started to love with all your heart. Yes, the path seems blurry and you cannot guarantee anything, the bad in you that you want to change about yourself seems almost impossible to dispel in a blink of an eye. But you're going to try anyway because you too have never wanted that to be inside you, you too have never asked to be grown up with such anger and rebel.

All you want to ask is a little help from someone who loves you, someone who is going to help you back up when you fall, someone who trusts you, believe in you in whatever you are doing, someone who can hold your hands and will never let go. And when everything and everyone turned you down, that someone is there just to say that as long as he's there, you're going to be fine and he'll always got your back.